eka

2010-08-29T05:34:00.002+08:00

Yo! haha. i forget dat i have a blog to update.
today is 29 August.
he's 28 years old few days back. I didnt get him anything as im short of money.
but i did cook for him. Chicken rice, black pepper chicken and tomyam soup.
im glad he love it.

He's older den me by 6 years.. each time i forget he's 28 years old..
and he everytime remind me dat he's old enuf.
talking bout marriage.. and i was like. wow.. this is really quick..
Cos the way he behave, seriously like 22 year old guy..
he very very manja.. seriously... hard to get huh. haha

we are left 12 days before syawal comes. time really fly fast.
gonna get my heel and clothes asap.. :D

2010-07-17T21:41:00.003+08:00

Hola!

Werking nite shift at budget terminal today.

Im freaking bored. so here i am. updating this.

Wake up at 11am today. Had rojak india for breakfast

Den off back to sleep. wake up at 3pm when he called me.

Since im bored. He asked to tag along to his soccer game at sengkang.

Bought myself mcspicy for lunch. Eat while watchin him play soccer.

Snap some pictures. bought my hp long time ago. and today i just test the camera.

not bad actually. haha

one of my fav shot. :)

And off he send me to werk. Tmrow my last nite for this week.

den im OFF and on Standby.

Yeah. i had a boring life.

As you can see. i dont club or went shopping or watever shit.

coz to me its such a waste of money.

If his frens 'rings' him. den we off to somewhere.

if not we are busy werking. he's on 12 hrs shift and me on 12 hrs shift.

and our shift dont usually the same.

he's on morning shift. im on night shift.

he's on night shift, im on morning shift.

im off, he werk.

and he werk im off.

yeah life totally unfair. sprating us..

but we die2 make time to meet.

Even just for awhile.

i love him. :)

2010-07-09T07:01:00.003+08:00

A quick and short updates.

Sorry for the long MIA.

im too lazy to update my daily lifes.

as u know nowdays i get tired easily.

getting old already. haha

Well, firstly we are officially 1 year together. YEAH! *jump for joy*

i cant believe it. everything happen so quick.

we didnt celebrate our anniversary. he was busy werking.

Currently now im werking at the airport. just transfer 2 mnths ago.

so called 'the counter girl' giving gst money to tourist. see, how generous i am.. *evil laugh*

And yeah. werking with all malay colleague is big time sucks ok.

gossip here and there. "sindir" here and there. Fuckin annoying.

Gonna run from here asap. Telinga ku da naik panas.. sebelom terbakar.

Updating abit of my 4 days off last few days.

Friday i had Dinner at straits kitchen. Company annual dinner.

I didnt upload. but my frens did tagged me. see the pic if u can. haha

Sat n Sun im busy wif catering. His bestfriend engagement.

Running bedok to Hougang. hougang to bedok. He deal wif his bestfriends. and i deal wif his girlfren.

Mon i was on standby. and dey activate me last min. i was damn tireed due to the occasion. and i take mc last min. reason to dem: i got urgent matter.

At nite went jb. eat supper at senibong. chili crab, cereal prawn, tomyam. eating by the sea. the view and the atmosphere is damn nice. after eating went to wash car, pump petrol and went back. reached home at 4am. rest for awhile and went to werk. currently im like zombie at werk. waiting for someone to shoot me and go to dreamland. haha.

trying to stay awake by updating this. pls mind me. :)

i msg my sup early in the morning to help me find pple to swap wif me. and she start her attitude. as i didnt turn up for my activation. im okey wif it. just wait n see.. wanna play dirty. i can.. no prob wif me. dey just havent see my true colours. just wait..*evil smile*

2010-03-13T16:18:00.004+08:00

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2010-03-06T00:52:00.002+08:00

Im back from PTF (Premier tax free) company dinner.
@ Orchard Parade Hotel

Well.. i feel so lucky werkin there..
get to eat foods... ahahah.
they are so friendly.
i feel different werking there.
the atmosphere.. seriusly. i feel like im part of the family. (:

On tuesday, went to eat lunch wif my colleague.
celebrating ines n Huijian farewell..
Yesterday, lunch-in
Pizza & some finger foods
celebrating ines n huijian farewell together wif all the colleague cum shafii birthday surprise.
Today,
eat again.
More Pictures upload @ facebook.
take a peep..

Been eating non stop.. the more i wanna loose weight. the more i eat.
^#$@#!

2010-03-02T22:50:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to buy sandal.
Finally i can make a decision.
haha

Yesterday 'date' was awesome!
Went to parkway to buy my sandal
have our dinner at adam rd..
Went to orchard central for the first time.
yesh im very the jakun..
very anxious to take the looonng escalator to the roof top.
beeautiiffuuull scenery... very calmin..
but sad to say. i cant stay long at the rooftop as he's afraid of height. haha.
really cuutee..

today 'date' was another awesome.
Went to JB straight after werk.
and that is my first endorsement since i renew my passport in oct 09. haha
had dinner at pandan city * forget the place*
lamb chop, garlic naan wif keema.. wash car..
everything was supperrb..
full to the max
bought myself "my name is khan" cd.
Went pump petrol full.
and off back to singapore..

wonder what tmorow plans. haha (:

2010-02-28T22:24:00.002+08:00

Tmorw is MONDAY.

and its MARCH...

gosh!

time fast really fast..

i really didnt feel my weekends..

shuld have spent my weekends more.. grr..

i wanna buy CK sandals.. shud i? hmmm..

my heart say buy. but my mind say dont.

arrgh.. help me...

my weekends?

saturday, spent my day at home.

movie marathon.

watched santau.

its funny + horror movie.

funny as in their face expression.

Sunday, spent my day at his home.

He have RT today. but didnt went..

wake him up. but he's too tired.

So another marathon. but its TV marathon.

haha..

I wanna watch my name is KHAN!

2010-02-27T12:41:00.002+08:00

SHOoPPing?
Its every girls dream..
buyin new clothes, shoes and accessories..
My hand itch each time i get my pay.. soo tempting to spent..
but i cant..
i just dont know when my turns will come...

I have tons of things to shop.. but $$ cant let me do it..
Its more than a year i didnt get a new things for myself..
my closet is full of my old junks clothes. oversize, expanded clothes..
i cant imagine..

I just tot of buying myself a $10 dress/shirt , a CK sandle, and a $10 watch. but i tink we wont make it to the end of the month if i buy this stuff.
and oh. my makeup are finishin soon. my VS bodyspray too.. HAIZZ
Officially Once again we are short in $$.
He didnt earn dat much this month coz he was on 2 weeks leave previous month.
And his pay is all gone. Paying bills, loans, car..
Like i said. i dont earn much..
Im left wif 400 for the whole mnth of march for the both of us.
and i dont know how to survive..4 weeks to go before i get my another pay..
petrol, his ciggies, our makans, my prepaid topups..
arrrgh. hanging on a thread once more. fuck!

2010-02-22T22:26:00.002+08:00

God really test us..
Cobaan & dugaan that god test us are at the high risk.
It makes me wanna give up.
But upon seeing him, i knew we can make it together.

Im hoping he can pull thru.
All the negative words pple say/did to him at his werk.
I just dont want to see him suffer..
I believe in karma.
Sooner or later the person who did this will get back.
Easy for u to say. Hard for us to pull thru..

Thankz to some FRIENDS who lend us a hand.
Appreciate it lots..

SALARY day is just around the corner.
I dont expect much. And i dont expect that i will get my target bonus.
The pay havent comes in. but things tat need to pay already lined up.
By the 2nd week of the month, i know my pay all gone..

I know we can pull through this together.
happy 8th monthsary dear. (:

2010-02-19T21:43:00.004+08:00

I took my personality test on facebook. The result are quite true..very interesting..try it !

Get to know yourself better
Dear Nur Atikah, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are down-to-earth
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :People like you because you are so straightforward
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both side
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are a true romantic
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :When you are in love
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You will do anything
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Everything to keep your love true
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You like to flirt
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Behave seductively
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The opposite sex finds this very attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You'll be set for life
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Nothing will stop you from trying
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Independence is important to you

2010-02-19T20:12:00.002+08:00

randoms photos.

just to brighten up my bloggy.

more pictures updated @ my facebook. (:

Im back from werk today early.

6pm reached home safely.

finally took a train home after a countless mth

didnt took any public transport.

im not action ok.

haha

He went for his ICA soccer game .

cant fetch me from werk as the game start @ 5pm

currently waiting patiently waiting for his call or sms.

iloveyou.

2010-02-17T00:20:00.001+08:00

I had a wonderful day today..
Went kite flying wif loves..
Pictures upload @ facebook. Will upload n modified some things in here soon.. Rite now using mobile bloggin. =)
im gettin sunburn. My face is burnin rite now eventho im sleepin under the fan. *ouch*
Im updatin short n simple yet sweet as my body too tired to sleep..haha..

2010-02-15T21:06:00.002+08:00

ALOT of things i wanna buy..
but everytime im short of cash.
i need a financial advisor..
im in bad bad financial..
damn!
planned our 1st anniversary on june.
& his birthday is cuming. on August.
need to start saving from now.
ideas are running in my mind..

Things i wanna do for us:(not included the present)
1. handphones for us.
been aimin samsung or the new motorola for me. (havent survey)
a better nokia phones for him.
2. car servicing, modified inner and outer parts of the car.
3. mayb a short gateway wif him.
4. SHOPPIN is a MUST!

i tell u something. i have not been to orchard for a long long time.
so thats mean i have not been to ION, orchard central & etc since its open!
TIME for us to spent wif each other is UNLIMITED. Only dat we are struggeling wif $$. So its hard for us to move around when we are out of $$. Honestly. I dont earned dat much. Im tryin my best to save on wad i can aford. We spent wif each other by spendin time at his house or mine. Sometimes met his frens for supper.

I admit i envy all those lovely dates. i know mine will come sooner or later.. the key is just to be patient and not giving up.

2010-02-15T02:16:00.002+08:00

Happy valentines day to all lovely couples out there..
Mine didnt have any special day. We didnt celebrate or even meet each other..
I didnt expect much from him coz i know we are on budjet..
Yeah. I know its a special day for all girls.. Every girls wanna to have a great memory on this special day. I wanted to. But rezeki are not wif us. I dont mind. Theres always some other times.. I know he love me. And wad he express to me dat day. I locked his words to my heart. =)

2010-02-13T15:16:00.002+08:00

Everything turn out good last night.
We talked..
so the story has ended.. i feels a brand new me.
iits like a new love has born.
He told me everything and im satisfied..
alhamdullilah. =)

Currently in processin for burning fats..
went joggin wif tyra yesterday...
its been a long time didnt run..
& seriously i feel pain everywhere..
my lungs. stomach.. i feel a sharp pain pokin my lungs.
heartbeat beating fast. face damn red..
gaspin for air.. damn.. im really heavy..
at least there someone who can give me support when i cant make it.
haha..
thankz dek~!
gonna run more on this holiday..
will be runnin wif him today. not sure wad time..
now having body cramps.. grrr...

2010-02-12T17:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !
to all my chinese friends...
HAPPY HOLIDAYs to all..

friday : halfday
Saturday & Sunday : OFF
Mon & Tue : PH
cant u see.. im having a long long holiday..
feels great. =)

Finish werk today at 1pm.
Went home straight.
Cook for him sambal udang..
i didnt know it turn dat delicious..
he like it.. im HAPPY..
he didnt believe i cook dat dish..
well.. dont judge the book by its cover ok b!
hehe

oh well.. i still cant get over wad happen.
its hard to forget...
i really feel so heartbreakin rite now..
did u listen to RIA just now
on "gerlfren" segment?
the topic is about ur guy secret. and u get to find out by urself or by others..
and this topics is really what im goin thru..
i did send email to fiza o.
and she read..
wen she read. i cried.
i send her the email not to tell the whole world bout him.
but i just wanna her to give me advice..
well, she said. if she was me.. she didnt know what to do also. she said i was a rebound girl..
wad is the meanin of that? rebound girl?'
hmm..
im confused rite now. did know what i should do next..

i just wanna him to appreciate my presence. appreciate our relationship..
i love him very much. if he did love me. he wont do such things..
im dissapointed on wad i had seen..

2010-02-06T12:24:00.002+08:00

Im down wif flu , cough and sorethroat since last week.
very very bad cough wif flames. *yuck*
i really hate the taste.. haha
not only me... my whole family plus him..
so can u see the virus is jumping among us? haha
wanna get sick? come near to us... *evil laugh*

today is saturday.. and i have only 2 days to enjoy my weekends.
and back to werk on monday.. *boo hoo*
gonna meet him later at 4. went for his soccer game at sembawang.
after dat mayb went for dinner and back home. =)
dat is my usual routine for weekends..

2010-01-28T20:39:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!

Feel like expressing out everything inside me.
I have a bad feelings lately and my guts is right.. Im bored at werk. So i got nothing to do. I went in his facebook acct. Scrolling n scrolling, scan thru all this frens status and my hand accidentally click on the inbox. And i found out he left a message for her saying " i miss you. I dreamt about u. I dont know y." how would u feel if ur guy did this to u? Yesh it hurts. Feel like pple stab u thru the heart.. He didnt told me about this. I found out on my own. I act as per normal after werk. we joke, smile. but inside me. only god know how i feel..

i wont ask him but i will see what will happen next..

He did treat me nice.. yesh i admit i did melt when he called me sayang, dear, aby..Coz no one ever treat me the way he treat me.. But is there any meaning behind this scene?? im stress..
im still not sure whether he is happy wif me. or he was force to be wif me. Alot of questions are playing inside my mind.

i know, im not dat preety as her. not clever as her..may not the girl she wants..
but i just wanna him to except me whu i am..

2010-01-26T23:59:00.002+08:00

this thing stuck on my mind lately.
Should i find a part-time? For extra income?
Means..i have a fulltime job and a parttime job.
But the parttime job, i'll be werkin 4hrs during weekdays and 6 hrs during weekends..i know i'll be damn tired. But..i think my fulltime job salary is not enuf to cover the whole mth..minus my debt,bills,mum.. I dont think i have some saving left.. Should i? feel like werking. But im scared i cant managed my time. Hmm.. I'll ask his opinion fist. Den i will think bout it again..

2010-01-24T22:19:00.002+08:00

woah!
tomorrow is MONDAY.
it means.. back to werk..damn it! *frown eyebrown*
i wonder y weekend is soo damn short. haha.

im hoping this week will be the final week of suffering..
will get my pay this friday.
So.. dats mean.. pay everything. every single debt and save the rest for EMERGENCY.
oh wait.. i will be doing abit of shopping too..
mayb i will grab some clothes n sandals.
den... the next month.. in feb..we can get more things..

i wan IPHONES! or should i grab others since IPHONES are common nowdays..? hmm..
but i will get him a phone first.. den i can think what should i grab..
i cant stand any longer using prepaid.. it damn wasting alot of money..
i dont know how pple can survive using prepaid..

i had a great day spending time wif him today.. *wink*

2010-01-23T11:14:00.004+08:00

PPiiiikkkaaaabbooooo!!!

Sorry for the long long MIA.

i know my blog looks dead.. haha

i promise i will continue to write my love story..

Firstly wanna tell u all that finally i get a job! *jumpin around*

Werk as admin/data entry at Premier Tax Free Singapore.

My jobscope is mostly data entry..easy job. & i like it..

will stay this job for the time being and will upgrade myself when the time is right.

About my love story.. im much much more happier now...

been going thru hard times wif him lately.. make me more in love..

we jusst love to joke wif each other..share things...fetchin each other to and fro from werk..

i love the way we are now..spending time wif him every single day..

For 4 mth im not werking, he have helped me alot...

as in buyin my sis sch books.. etc..

he sacrifies alot just for us. eventho he need the money for something else.

even some other things i didnt expect him to do..

like he sell his laptops, hp just for us.

as we are shot of money for petrol, our makans..

i really dont know how to repay his kindness..

just wanna say.. im one lucky girl to have him.. *evil laugh*

i really appreciate it.. =)

Terima kasih cinta.. untuk segalanya..

As tmrow is our big day..

Happy 7th mth anniversary

I LOVE YOU.

2009-12-17T21:11:00.004+08:00

its been a while i have not been updating..
its not busy.. im just have no topic to talk about.
haha..
i know my blog looks dead..
will try my best to spent time wif it. haha

as usual spent time wif him for the past few weeks.
His insurance all settle..
sis school book oso settle.. alhamdulilah.
currently, i jus need a job. seriously.
my hp bills have not been paid for the last 4 mths.
and the total is $400++..
mane nk cakau oi...
well....
been sleeping at his crib for the past few days.
love spending time wif him..

well as i know many pple are happy this month due to the bonus thingy..
this month hopefully we have abit of money to spent..
insyallah..

2009-11-30T09:21:00.003+08:00

Been spending time with him for the one week.

His mum was warded at ttsh hosp last few days..

his dad im not sure where he is..

so i company him where ever he go..

Clean his house, wash his clothes, wash dishes, go mkn.

we did together..

Im having fun spending time with him..

He helped me alot. I feel useless when i cant help him back.

as in 'money' stuations

Throughout the whole week, we are together, i fall sick yesterday.

Temperature was 39 degree. My head was spinning. Body is shivering..

He ask me to rest at his house while he went soccer..

eat panadol and my temperature went down.

In the middle of the night. went up again...

OH MY...

2009-11-26T12:13:00.004+08:00

Spending time wif him for the last few days was a BLAST!

Sat 21/11 - Spent time wif him at his house. wanna go soccer but rain didnt stop
Sun 22/11 - Spent time wif him at raffles den company him to his soccer.
Mon 23/11 - Company him apply his loan, clean his room
Tue 24/11 - Company him apply his loan again.. sell HP as we are out of money. wash car, went window shop his car accessories, fetch my sis at vivo.
Wed 25/11 - Went breakfast wif him early in the morning. Went market together, spent the whole day wif him at his crib..

Im secured when im wif him. Im admit. Im totally happy when im wif him..
Laugh, jokes.. i just love it.. Words cant describe how much love i had..
Ups and Down. All the suffering we'hv been thru. & i learn alot from him.
Thankz for everything bi. Dont give up on me.
Will try my best to be wif u thru out everything.
Just Wanna Wish u Belated 5mthsary.
LUV U!

2009-11-21T12:08:00.004+08:00

I have a great birthday last thursday.

Celebrating wif all my loves one wif me.

im happy..

Thankz for the effort. appreciate it lots...

Yesterday went to his house.

Spent time wif him the whole day.

& the bad mood come. & he sent me home.

Never called me till now.

Wake up in the morning.

called him several times.

didnt pick up.

he's werkin morning shift today.

Logged into facebook..

see his shout out..

"let us and everybody be silent for 1 whole day"

i know wad he is thinkin

today suppose to be his weddin day. but it called off few months back..

i dont understand why he still dwellin bout his past.

y cant he move on.

& dat make me questionin myself.

is he happy wif me? or he's wif me just to make me happy?

if he is happy wif me. he wont make me suffer like this.

he wont dwell bout his past. he should appreciate my presence.

& i can feel he still love her..& that feelin of my is strong.

he may say he wont love her. hate her infront of my face.

but he cant lie to himself. i can see his body language..

i know its hard.. but its harder for me to help him forget her if he remain like this.

we are nearly half a year. i just cant go on if his mindset is still like this..

i dont know what to do anymore..

he's big enuf to think wads rite and wads wrong.

just wanna let u know.

i love u.

i will try my best to make u forget her.

& that is a promise.

im not giving up...

2009-11-18T16:12:00.003+08:00

Donut Madness

This is what i will do when boredom strike!

sedaaapppp

2009-11-17T10:22:00.002+08:00

My heart tell me soo much..
some are negative. some are positve till sometimes i dont know which decision i should take.
I need a someone to talk to me. Someone who is mature bout all this.
I just cant keep in slience all the time. The pain is getting deeper.
This always happen when i fall in love.

Quote of the day : Love someone who love you. Not the one you love.
* this quote remind me of someone. i told him this. & he said " Oh. kirekan u tk love me la?"
ahakz. kinda make me smile alone..

I have been trying to make him forget her. Seems didnt work.
Everytime i see he contact her.. i just feel insecure.
U will feel what i feel when this happen to u..

Argh!..

2009-11-13T13:46:00.005+08:00

Wishing all November babies including myself a

Happy advance/belated birthday.

I just cant wait to be offically 21..

haha

& when mum seems agree on my bali trip.

im too excited. I just cant wait.

the word seems means she seems to agree bout it. but havent agree yet.

Her facial expression tells so.

but i take it as a YES!.

hahaha.

Change my blogskins. Stress & confuse with the codes.

Simply. Will put up more photos soon.

When i have enuf pics of him.

ahakx!

I miss him to the core..

Not sure when we will meet up.

His off day today.

& i know he surely spent his off day sleepin wif the weather like this.

2009-11-11T01:03:00.001+08:00

Im updating in the middle of the night..
feel like expressin everything inside me. Hahaha

I dont understand mum attitude. The older she get. The more perangai she make.. She thinks we are still kids. We know our limits ok. I just wanna her to take care of my two lil sis. When i was their age. Im not bein treated wad they bein treated now. N my sis is soo very the degil n out of control. yesh i know she care for us. But its too over. Over the limit.. We are grown ups. And we know wads wrong n wads right.. I just dont wanna be in her armpits all the time. I have my responsibilities too. She very damn irritating. She think the way she control us is right. Its not ok! N she think everything she did is right. She didnt even realise her mistake. When we spot hers. She start to throw tantrums. Haiz. Let pple say wat dey wanna say. Did dey help us all this time? U even dont like dem. So wad the heck u care about dem!! Ur ego is just too big.. Change ur attitude before we get sick n tired. U think all the things u have said will make us think twice? No! It doesnt make any sense at all!!

Grrr. I just hope she can understand her daughter needs.. Dont think bout pple. Think bout us!

2009-11-06T17:26:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went to changi.

have nasi lemak for dinner.

&& Hot pisang goreng.

yummyy...

yesterday was raining the whole day.
after eating proceed to changi T3.
chill till midnight and proceed home
eveyone is werking morning today.
so have to go back early.
he's werking night shift today.
doing OT.

they plan to go bali on febuary
i wanna go!!
haha. but see how first la.
need to save up more.
airplane tix is not cheap ok.
haha

2009-11-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

Im speechless!!
my 21st birthday didnt expect to get wad i should get.
im sooo happy till i didnt know how to thank him or repay wad ever he did.

i get a ring for my birthday.
sweet n simple + elegant.
i LOVE it. very very much... *smile wide wide*

I get a $25 body shop voucher.
When shoppin wif him just now.
get myself a cherry showergel n cherry body lotion.
the smell.. sooo nice!!

We actually plan on the 11th, dat is nawa 21 birthday
went for a boat ride, fishin + bbq on a boat.
celebrating our 21st.
i really look forward to it.
but mum and her ego..
OMG. only god knows her attitude..
and the plan was canceled!

Hubby celebrate my birthday yesterday.
Plan to have dinner at pizza hut wif my family.
end up havin pizza delivery at home..
appreciate it lots..
thankz for everything b..
i love u very very much...

2009-11-03T16:16:00.007+08:00

The Pics that i promise.

Enjoy..

sorry bout the size. haha.

2009-10-31T01:30:00.005+08:00

Just came back from haloween safari..

it was great.

some of the haloween character look real..

SCARY OK~~

& this f##@$ dracula make my day. THANKS a LOT to him la eh..

actually we are taking photo. a group fhoto..

& this dracula approach to me from my back.

i didnt know he was at my back till i feel his breath on my neck.

i turn around and he was lookin at me. wif his sharp teeth. his eyes..

his face full of blood..

can u imagine, his face still fresh on my mind.

off coz i get shock & scream..

& from that on. wherever we go. i hold on to him.

hold him soo tight.. haha.

we go for the track trail. the horror trail was scary.

but nothing happen.. only dummy.

we didnt take the tram..

it was heavy rain..we all were drenched!

not much animal can be seen. mostly hiding due to the rain..

The big prob i was talking bout was...

we actually didnt have any money.

& his fren has already bought us the tix.

so under 'bopean' act,

he decided to apply new line.

$0 hp wif the line.

so went to M1. subscribe. get the new phone (W508)

& we sell it off.

we get $190.

wif that money.. we have our day. =)

&& he can call me already..

free outgoing call to my number..

yeahh..*jump jump*

currently now i cant sleep.

im having a big headache..

due walkin in the rain..

will update pics when i get all of the photos from frens..

2009-10-30T00:21:00.002+08:00

Haloween Safari..

Here i come.

but......a big big prob

(pictures will update.. *promise*)

2009-10-26T13:49:00.004+08:00

Its been a long time i didnt update my twitter. & im LOST. haha
Use to have blog last time. Updating twitter each time i post.
Currently im struggling. confuse.
Haha.

im tired..lately im not having a good night sleep..
each time i close my eyes, my mind just cant stop wondering..
mayb im thinkin too much negative. dats y.
haiz.
He's now sleeping. He will wake up in the afternoon. around 3 or 4.
today is his off day. mayb we are not going out as we are out of money & petrol.
will wait for his Pay end of the month.
so ika, control ur emotions.. i know u miss him even u already spent the whole week wif him..(evil laugh)
He's planning to apply Credit Cards to pay all insurance,road tax by end of the year.
At first i disagree. den i think back, its better for him to apply as im not werking. hee.

Im bored sittin at home. Nothin much to do. Been playin games @ facebook.
& it really make u addicted. haha.
November Come Quick. I just cant wait to be officially 21. (potong ribbons. haha)

2009-10-24T12:57:00.001+08:00

yoohaaa..
Im gonna post short & sweet.
Im using my phone to update as the lappie is fully booked by my sis..

Just reached home just now @ 11am. Went out for interview as sats customer service agent. Hopefully i get this job. Im tired of finding job. Tired of sitting at home. Tired of not having money. Haiz. Need to wait for respond 3 weeks if im shortlisted. Currently still waiting for spf letter for my application dat day.

2009-10-23T16:04:00.002+08:00

im just wondering whether he love me or not. whether its 100% or not.
Im just curious. Coz guys is a sweet talker.
He did tell me he love me. He did everything as a lover did. He appreciate my presence by his side. & dats goes wif me as well.
I love him soo much. I just dun wanna lose him.

Its just dat since the day he helped his ex, i feel unsecured. My mind just cant stop wondering all the negative side. im afraid. Afraid to be hurt again

2009-10-23T12:01:00.003+08:00

Halloooo...

Yesterday was a not a fun day to the endin part.

But im having fun in the middle of the outing wif his frens.
Went out to bencoolen to have dinner.

den procced to Kepple by the bay.

That was the first time he went there and he was soo jakun..

Well. that place has a memory for me.

Went there actually to chill at TCC.

but the TCC too exclusive. haha..

Change of plan. Went to Terminal 3 TCC.

Had my favourite 'dark devotion'

Chill there till 1 in the morning.

& proceed home.

The sad part is.

when i went out wif him.

his ex called him twice..

im pissed off...

2009-10-21T20:38:00.002+08:00

wad a day today.

went out wif him just now tot of havin a wonderful day again.
but i think not everyday is perfect.

today turns out bad. i cant believe its happening.
for everything i try to make him forget her.
but simply he cant.
after he told me everything. i cant believe he did this to me.

argh... sometime i just feel....

too hurt to express wad i have been thru...

2009-10-20T23:58:00.002+08:00

Im having a great day today..

Basically we are having interviews today.
he went for his final interview for SPF at the recruitment center MHA
(beside tan tock seng).
hopefully he get the job.
He decided to went back to goverment sector.
and me, i went down for interview as data entry clerk.
and the pay is damn low.
i went for typin speed test and i FAILED!
seriously its hard. the words and figures are combined together.
1st and 2nd row are easy. the hard part is starting from the 3rd.
imagine u were typing for the 3rd row.
u were typing half way, reading the figure and the words inside ur heart. u type type and u realise u were typing for the 4th one. and the 4th u were typing for the 5th.
the rows and columns are soo near..soo close together, till your eyes playing tricks on u.
and u were given 10 min to complete as many as u can.
i did completed alot. i have 5 mistake. and dey need less den 5.
too bad den. haha.

We are out of money for today actually.
Kuasa Allah.. He found hp yesterday and today.
yesterday was old hp. i dont know the model. today was N95 8GB.
& dats wad we call rezeki..
we sell n95 8GB on the spot.
we target around $100+. but we get $200 for dat phone.
he's happy. and im happy too.
straight to queensway shopping mall
meet his friends and he bought his soccer boots.
procced for dinner and home sweet home.. =)

currently waiting for his calls.
i have my PASSPORT..hurray!!
tot of going to JB tomorrow.
wash his car. pump petrol. eat lunch / dinner .
His car soo dusty due to the haze. && kena BOM by the birds summore. aiyoo..

B.. faster call me!!

2009-10-18T12:40:00.003+08:00

i have my pink card!
so dats mean i can collect my passport
yipee..
end of the month will be going...

yesterday i have a fun night wif him.
in the afternoon company him to his soccer.
procced to his sister house at woodland.
chill there for EPL
layan his anak sedare.
playing drawing games. very cute.

den proceed to Raffles Hosp.
resting at Excutive room watch tv till 2 in the morning.
spent the night wif him was soo....(cant desribe how i feel)
im meltin in his arms.. =)
back to home sweet home..

this words are playing in my mind..
" best wishes for your new relationship. i guess there isnt anymore hope"
his ex send to him.. its october. and i know november are coming.
november is the month dey actually getting married.
what does she mean? hoping for miracle to happen?
she the one who make him suffer, and i help him to pull thru..
and she hoping something back from him?
dream on lady...
& i know confirm he feel regret..coz i know how much he love her
i know its hard to forget someone. & the way she sms him like dat..
i know setan da start hasut...

well, let see wad happen next..
have u ever heard the song " diantara kalian" from d'masiv?
sometime thats wad i feel when im wif him.
i can feel his body is wif me. but not his mind..

2009-10-16T00:19:00.003+08:00

Been staying up late lately..

talking on the phone wif him.

Talkin on the phone bout this conversation all the way

To my surprise, he already plan ahead.

u know wad i mean.

2011 is the year.

*kening naik2*

well ika, need to start savin !

for the mean time..

i just dont want to put full hope on him.

like wad i always did

as u know guys are always guys.

aniway its just a PLAN.

just pray our relationship went smoothly.

i dont want to be heartbroken again.

learn from mistake. =)

currently waiting for his call.

im active in facebook.

a web that can make u addicted.

games, frens

im loving it..

went to Ikea & ECP just now.

lend abg nawa car

just window shoppin.

the funiture, all damn nice & cheap..

but im not sure the quality is good or not.

soo tempting..just wish i have my own house rite now. =D

East Coast, went to have our dinner. satay n bbq chicken wing.

den proceed to home sweet home.

im having leg cramps due to the clutch.

damn KERAS. and the gear. irritating shit!

And Oh. before i forget. my bill soon will be cut off..

& i have new prepaid num..

soon will be msg-ing u all

oh. werk..where are u.

pls dont make me suffer..

2009-10-14T10:40:00.002+08:00

i cant wait for next week..

wanna know y?

haha.

firstly i cant wait to get letter to collect my passport.

i have decided to make my passport thru post. And make payment by my master.

its more convienent i tink. for me la.

so that i can go JB to eat the lamb chop he's talkin bout.

JEALOUS!. ahakz.

secondly i cant wait to get letter from SPF on my application for Corporate support officer.

My application for ica as ICA Specialist is not successfull.

I apply again thru online. Still waiting for respond.

No worries. Theres always better luck next time. =)

AND..AND..i cant wait for november.

counting days!

IM OFFICIALLY 21.

yiippee..

i have been stuck at home for more than 1 month.

its boring!

& im out of deodorant and make up.

gosh!

He will be werking this whole week

night shift.

&& i miss him really badly..

hopefully will be meeting him on sun.

goin for his soccer.

im sorry for yesterday night. really didnt expect u say dat to me.

it really take time for me to forget wad u said.

haha. aniway forget bout it

i luv u very much b~!

2009-10-13T15:40:00.000+08:00

04 Octorber 2009

ICA raya-ing

(his frens)

enjoy the pics..

2009-09-30T16:22:00.000+08:00

This week is pack with catering

Damn tired!

Yesterday went to 2nd Division Fire Station for catering

im not sure wad function dey having.

Giving away awards i think.

This coming sat another catering at yishun safra area.

my body is aching. muscle cramps everywhere..

Cannot tahan!

i used his car for 2 days.

went to visit my dad kubor just now.

hot hot weather!

gonna fetch him from werk later.

hee

i luv u b!

2009-09-27T17:20:00.000+08:00

im bored sitting at home.

werk oh werk. haiz.

thinkin bout finding a job very stressfull.
haha.

Family went for Open house..
Dey kinda like PMS today. Sume bad mood...
so mls nk lyn.
Actually i wanna follow dem.. tink twice ah..
some reason if i follow:
30% percent i will get collection.
half of the house i will get bored eating the same kuih
3/4 journey, my make up will gone with this weather
mostly im tired answerin makcik2 question or likely i will be hearing
da keje? keje ape? maseh skola? da besar da anak leha..bile nk kawin? ika beli kereta eh? asl tk smbong skola?
and some makcik..
ituari nmpk ika ngan kwn ika.( questioning myself dlm hati.. bile mase aje..bukan aku ckp aku... )
aiyoo..

&&
im not sure im going out later or not..
mayb yes! hope soo..
but i have no plan for us to head to..
singapore really damn small..

Will makin my passport asap.
tgu duit collection cukup..haha
u ever heard singpost can make passport?
which is better? online? or direct to the ica building..
nk queue to la yg tk sanggup. hee

honestly im havin great time yesterday..
Im Loving It. hahaha..
smpai termimpi2..

2009-09-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

The 6th day of syawal.

This year not much visiting..

4th Oct will be raya-ing wif his friends.

4th Oct sec sch frens also will be raya-ing

basically first come first serve.

Soo sorry if i cant make it wif u guys.

lain kali plan la siang2 siket.

Or change the date. Insyallah i'll be going..

Went for walk in interview last wed.

Apply as ICA Specialist.

Will get letter in 1-2 weeks time for 2nd interview.

Im currently finding a fulltime job to stable myself.

Werking in a contract basis job make me hanging on a thread every month..

cannot tahan..

i miss him lots...

just wanna wish happy belated 3mthsary b!

2009-09-24T11:45:00.000+08:00

Before i start anything, i wanna wish
SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN
ika ingin menyusun 10 jari memohon maaf atas kesalahan yg ika buat selama ini.
kalau ika terkasar bahase, gurau yg tk bertempat, menyinggung perasaan sape2
harap maafkan ye..

As u can see,
Since my dad passed away last 3 years, everything in our live has change..
The breeze of hari raya is not that 'fresh' like it used to be.
before my dad passed away, my family, my cussin, uncle aunty all gather together and we went visiting. the more the merrier..

now, since the last 3 years, we went visiting alone. as a family..
the mood of hari raya is not that happening animore...seeing other families, really make me jealous and reflect back all the memories..
Really miss the fun.. what more can i say. people change. they come and go.

enjoy the pics that i will update..1st and 2nd day of raya

i love my baju this year...purple sweet.. haha. thankz adek for choosing it for me. hahaha..

2009-09-10T15:40:00.000+08:00

A birthday broniws cake make by tira n me for Nawa father in law.

We bake this cake at 11pm till 12am.

Sahur continue back to decorate the cake.

simple n sweet.

How i wish i still have a father.

seeing the word 'AYAH'

feel very sad.

miss him soo much..

2009-09-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

wad hairstyle should i make this raya?

i have a very bad hair days lately.
my curl starts to show. have a very bad dried hair.
n it looks very damn awful..
rebornding? im out of money.
baju raya pun tk lepas..

yesterday cut my fringe..
and looks like 'apam'.
haiz..

im not gonna cut short again..i wanna keep it long..
i miss my long hair.
menyesal ok potong...haiz..

2009-09-07T02:17:00.000+08:00

Last week went to Zam-Zam for breakfast.

Went wif family and my ayg.
He dont like to take pictures. kinda cute. haha
nvm one day will force him take pic wif me.
wuahahaha..

upload some pics to brighten up my blog. haa.

as u can see my sis are trying to be a photographer.

snappin a focused can.

and she's happy for taking that photo.

mum gettiing bored.. haa.

tu la. booked table siang2 lagi..

if u wanna know dey came at 5pm.
i n him meet dem later on at 6.30

i look fat sia.

bukan look lagi mmg fat pun ika..

hisk! i dont realise till i look at this photo.

tk senonoh..

she love makin that sign..

haiz..

and this minah..
-no comments-
hee

2009-09-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

Remember the day i bought danny E63 when im wif him early of the year?
He return back to me last week and i sell it off just now..
I bought 2 set of E63 for $350 each. Me & for him. = $700
& i sell his, i get $140. Nokia phones price really drop that quick..
i was shocked when dey offer me that price..
But i cant say too much la. Coz i know i bought it at a 'cheap' area.
Wif no warranty..
i wonder what if i sell mine..confirm less than $100 coz my hp condition is worst than his. haha.
i have drop it on the road (rough surface) more than 3 times.
so i think u know how my hp condition looks like. hee..

Now on sale.
Im selling Everlast watch which i bought for him on his birthday online..
price and pictures to be update asap. come wif box
conditions is still brand new...

well.. im earning money for hari raya..no money means no BAJU this year.. ='(
As u can see my status is UNEMPLOYED. Im finding job ASAP.
Things always come out at the wrong time...freaking irritating...
My Last job was at Raffles Hosp as Purchasing Clerk. Yesh, i know some of my fren are stretching their head..dey say im very lucky to meet him everyday, sending and fetchin me from werk..im werking wif my hubby. but we are in different department..understand? mesti la jumpe ari2. da keje same tmpat..haaha

2009-09-06T02:00:00.000+08:00

Ok basically im back updating..
time check 2 am.
still struggling on the skins.
take time for me to 'modified'.
Well, like i did on my previous post.
will update bout my life, my new love life and the things around me.

I just came back just now. Went 'breakfast' at his house and proceed to Raffles Hosp.
Chill over there. He's werking night shift today..
i wanna eat ice cream today. We went to macd drive thru at ECP and dey say dey dont serve ice cream. terbantot sey..i dont know y i feel like eating something cooling..
hmm..
Im hoping for my pay to be in by this week or next week. List of shopping to do..hehe..=)

2009-06-24T14:44:00.000+08:00

im back posting. in a new blog of mine. so anyone whu has old blog of mine.
pls pls pls relink me okie?

well theres a reasons y i make a new blog. coz i wanna forget my past.
i wanna start a fresh....like wad pple said " open a new chapter".
too many memories..